As you can probably tell from the title of this post, Gaines isn't really fired up about bringing his oxygen down. He was between 28-30% last night but this morning at our visit he was at 30%. Its so frustrating to me to not be able to just fix it myself and all these little pep talks I keep giving him don't really seem to inspire him. I've even been promising him all kinds of things like never having to cut the grass, take out the trash, empty the dishwasher etc and he's not really budging. I've decided that he takes after his namesake (my sister) in another way now. She does everything at a snail's pace and I guess Gaines will too.
I've been in great spirits the last 10 days or so (ever since Reed's been here) but I got kind of down about the oxygen business this morning. I guess I just don't know how to not focus on it and still be a concerned parent. The only way I could not pay attention to those numbers is to not visit and not call and check on him...but then what kind of mother would I be? I'm trying to just leave it in God's hands but my heart still sinks every time I find out that is oxygen hasn't come down. I prayed hard about it this morning and right now I have a peace that it will come down in its on time.
I didn't get to do the kangaroo care last night like I thought because Gaines had several "episodes" yesterday. He dropped his sats a couple of times and had a few instances of bradycardia. I believe he corrected them himself but the nurses didn't think getting him out would be the best thing. Its and awful lot of stress for such a little guy.
The good news is that Gaines gained 66 grams last night. I believe that puts him back about 3 lbs 11 oz. Maybe we'll finally see 3 lbs 12 oz tomorrow. Please pray for continued weight gain, for his brain bleed to clear up on its own and for healthy heart and lungs. Also, he has an eye exam today. Please pray that it goes well.
Love to all,