I wish I was more creative with these blog titles. It's actually weird to me to even be thinking of blog titles. Until this little curve ball God through us I'd never considered myself a blog person. I enjoy reading other people's blogs but never dreamed I'd have one of my own.
I don't really have a lot to report medically which is a good thing. Beau mentioned earlier that we thought my temperature might be going up today, so I thought I'd explain that. My temperature was only 98.7 but mine always runs low so that was high to me. Apparently Beau and I were the only ones concerned. We kind of looked at each other out of the corners of our eyes when that reading came up. Neither wanting to overreact, but both knowing that could be the start of a bad thing. My next reading was back to "normal" for me so we breathed a sigh of relief. I think it kind of reminded us that no matter how long we are here, at some point something will happen to get things in motion and our whole little world will change.
Right now we've sort of settled into our new world as best as possible. Doctors in early, back to sleep for a while, breakfast, make-up, etc. Blissfully more of the same everyday. I'm not sure how we'll react when something actually happens. I think I went into shock when they told me I was staying here. I started shaking and couldn't stop...so many things running through my mind. I wonder if I'll react the same way when they tell me its time? The words of the doctor from the first full day keep ringing in my mind..."This is going to happen". Let's just hope that's several weeks from now.
I also thought I'd fess up on my little blog hiatus. Beau has been putting most of the updates up lately because I've been stuck in a book that I can't put down. A person who shall remain nameless to protect her non-fifteen year old identity, sent me Twilight to read. Well that has occupied most of my day. I'm debating right now on if I stop for the night or stay up late and finish. Anyway, that's where I've been. It's really a pretty good book.
In other news, the mail came yesterday...and came and came and came. I don't know if they'd been saving up my mail until Friday or what, but I got so many cards yesterday. We also got a couple more packages of many much appreciated items. I wanted to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has sent cards, packages, commented on this blog, sent us emails and called. There is no way we can respond to all of them but please know that each one is so appreciated. We look forward to reading the comments on the blog and checking our emails several times a day so please keep it up. They really keep our spirits up.
The days start to run together here and I can't remember which of our visitors I've told you about but we've had a few the last two days. Each time the door opens an unfamiliar face comes in but they always leave feeling like old friends to us.
I had a pretty good little spell yesterday of missing Reed. I know that we are doing the only thing we can right now but its hard not to feel like the two people who are supposed to be there for him and take care of him have abandoned him. I pray that this isn't affecting him. My mom says its not, but I wonder if she's just trying to spare my feelings.
Reed actually went today to stay with Beau's parent's for a little while. They are bringing him back up here next Friday and I can't wait. It will be his first plane ride which makes me a little nervous but that's just my nature. Pray that he makes an easy adjustment to his Birmingham life this week.
I'll go for now. I don't think Beau is impressed with the content of my posts but I just try and offer a little insight to our life here. Hope you don't mind.
Please keep praying. If we make it through the night we've gotten farther than "most people do".
Love to all,